got back from first day at work thought. wasnt as bad as i expect it to be. but was damn boring, and standing the whole day made it worst. i almost at a breakdown while working. just sitting there. thinking of her. started writing her name on my palm. feels so good. but it will never happen. ever again. guess its hard to move on. it is.
i dont know if youre reading this, i doubt so. but i really wished nothing happened and we could be like old times. talking and texting, smiling. makes life so simple and nice. how i wished. i wished every night before i go to bed. sounds stupid right? this is what you get from a love sicked person.
zy here.
even a hi would make me day. really.
ALCOHOL MAY BE MAN'S WORST ENEMY BUT THE BIBLE SAYS LOVE YOUR ENEMY
navigate using the bars above
P L A Y
DOES THIS MEAN YOU'RE MOVING ON? BY THE AIRBORNE TOXIC EVENT
And the funny thing is it has no end
I try to call you up, at 2am
In a crowded bar, your ringer tones
Grab my mind
I can see you through the phone,
The phone, the phone
And I'm wide awake at home
At home, at home
So think I'll seem like a cat
And hope you don't catch
The bourbon on my breath
My breath, my breath
Catch a cab outside on Seventh Street
And the cars fly through the Bowery
I come to your door and I hear a moan
Then another voice, so Christ, she's not alone
Alone, alone
And my heart sinks like a stone
A stone, a stone
And the tears won't even come
I feel so numb
So swept aside, so dumb
So dumb, so dumb
When the words are wrong
And my patience gone
Will you tell me
Does this mean you're moving on?
From the balcony, you call my name
I see you standing in the rain
Your words so dry, your face so wet
Said I broke your heart,
But it hasn't happened yet
I'll bet, your friends all hate me now
I get the strangest looks,
From that bitchy crowd
And though, they must think
They have every reason to
I guess I'm still not quite yet over you
When the words are wrong
And you're hanging on
Another guy's arm
Does this mean you're moving on?
L O V E Y O U T U B E
ANNOYING ORANGE!
:D
P R O F I L E 1
THE LAME YET GOOD LOOKING DAUD
RANDOM FACTS ABOUT daud BY KWA & HELMI
ONE brown (i'm just tan lah)
TWO gets drunk often and
THREE does stupid stuff when his high
FOUR rebonded hair
FIVE likes to bang a wall and die
SIX pretends to be hit by air molecules all the time and
SEVEN does spastic octopus actions
P R O F I L E 2
THE KUNIANG YET ONE HELL OF A DANCER HELMI
RANDOM FACTS ABOUT helmi BY DAUD & KWA
ONE another brown, browner than DAUD
TWO LOVES fat & juicy thighs
THREE kuniang for life
FOUR dance till he drops
FIVE drools on people & people's pillow
SIX always plays with his curly part of his fringe
SEVEN has been asked by people why his name not HEAVEN-ME
P R O F I L E 3
THE BOTAK TRYIN TO GROW BACK HIS HAIR KWA ZHENG YU
RANDOM FACTS ABOUT kwa zhengyu BY HELMI & DAUD
ONE loves metal songs despite his guai appearance
TWO super youtube tard
THREE professional chiongster
FOUR endless flow of ideas in terms of confession
FIVE hates horror movies so much that he will cover his ears
SIX totally regards speakers as god
SEVEN has fantasies about CICAK MAN! (lizard man)
T A G B O A R D
GET THAT THOUGHT OUT OF YOUR MIND
It Will Never Happen. Really.
7:30 PM - Monday, November 30, 2009
a fun day filled with jelly beans
11:03 PM - Thursday, November 26, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWAN QI YAO! finally 17 huh!
so went out wif birthday boy kwa yunkeat helmi and nicole to celebrate and have fun ><>< waited for yunkeat finish his lesson before headin to plaza sing to meet kwa yao and cole. suppose to meet them at the earphone shop but apparently yunkeat was distracted by the new two wheel sakteboard thingy and was hooked on to it. and the girl promoting it was kinda pretty, so... AND YAO'S NEW HAIR! FUCKIN HILARIOUS! but nicer then mine. damnit. so we started to walk to fort canning park under the hot burning sun. if weizhi was there he would say how much vitamins he was absorbing HAHAHAHA! we walked one huge round to the fort cause cole said there was an escalator up to it from the national museum but we were like kinda lost? we cam whored the whole time doing random poses at random spots! HHAHAHA! shall let the picture tell the story. headed back to ps to meet helmi to watch movie, NEW MOON, cause cole wanted to watch it but couldnt catch it cause way too many girls are obssessed with it till the whole cinema was packed. had dinner at pizza hut and we ordered quite alot. played some truth or dare and kwa yk and me got some personal questions and yk had to do a dare! video will be on facebook too! headed home after all the fun and i feel so refreshed now (:
today was super fun and hilarious! BROTHER! hope you enjoyed your birthday! lets have the chalet to have loads more fun man! HAHAHA! daud here (:
so went out wif birthday boy kwa yunkeat helmi and nicole to celebrate and have fun ><>< waited for yunkeat finish his lesson before headin to plaza sing to meet kwa yao and cole. suppose to meet them at the earphone shop but apparently yunkeat was distracted by the new two wheel sakteboard thingy and was hooked on to it. and the girl promoting it was kinda pretty, so... AND YAO'S NEW HAIR! FUCKIN HILARIOUS! but nicer then mine. damnit. so we started to walk to fort canning park under the hot burning sun. if weizhi was there he would say how much vitamins he was absorbing HAHAHAHA! we walked one huge round to the fort cause cole said there was an escalator up to it from the national museum but we were like kinda lost? we cam whored the whole time doing random poses at random spots! HHAHAHA! shall let the picture tell the story. headed back to ps to meet helmi to watch movie, NEW MOON, cause cole wanted to watch it but couldnt catch it cause way too many girls are obssessed with it till the whole cinema was packed. had dinner at pizza hut and we ordered quite alot. played some truth or dare and kwa yk and me got some personal questions and yk had to do a dare! video will be on facebook too! headed home after all the fun and i feel so refreshed now (:
today was super fun and hilarious! BROTHER! hope you enjoyed your birthday! lets have the chalet to have loads more fun man! HAHAHA! daud here (:
It maybe be the start, it maybe be the end. Who knows?
8:34 PM - Wednesday, November 25, 2009
these few days kinda.... AT HOME. =.= actually went out yesterday to celebrate minvin's birthday. went to seoul... that seoul garden if you know.. that one.. was near that seat.. arh =.=. anyway after that went clementi for L4D 2. kinda fun though... but AIs still suck dick HAHA.
still looking for a job though... sucks being jobless and broke....
zy here.
I shall embrace this feeling till its gone. I have never regretted this feeling. Not even once.
still looking for a job though... sucks being jobless and broke....
zy here.
I shall embrace this feeling till its gone. I have never regretted this feeling. Not even once.
random note
1:00 AM - Monday, November 23, 2009
It's past midnight and i'm still awake.kkz quick shout out...
LONG DAY TODAY!!!!
1) school frm 10am-4pm
2)revision in SP lib
3)Dance 6pm-9pm
ROUGH day i'm gonna have..still not asleep! hope able to wake up early =/
HOPEFULLY
hmm..2 weeks more till mst week!
13 days 23 hours 57 mins
according to MY clock.
HELMI was here
LONG DAY TODAY!!!!
1) school frm 10am-4pm
2)revision in SP lib
3)Dance 6pm-9pm
ROUGH day i'm gonna have..still not asleep! hope able to wake up early =/
HOPEFULLY
hmm..2 weeks more till mst week!
13 days 23 hours 57 mins
according to MY clock.
HELMI was here
Future?
10:28 PM - Sunday, November 22, 2009
How do you know if your future is gonna be bright or bleak? the answer:CHOICES that u make in the PRESENT.I realised that many things around me are changing maybe it's not noticeable but i can jz feel it.A good friend asked me this question: 'What are u gonna do in life?' and i was merely speechless.
Well, truth is, i don't really have an idea of wad i wanna become in the future or wad am i'm gonna do in life.I'm currently aimlessly going with the flow of life.i'm currently in my own world right now where i don't wanna grow up too fast.
I know we cant stay young FOREVER. Sooner or later u have to make the decision that can determine your future.
All of u can say i'm still a kid or wad-so-ever for not being able to make these decisions. I DON CARE. All i'm sure right now is that i'm not ready YET to make this decisions about my future cause i don have a clear mind about it.I know things will work out eventually and all i can do now is try to give life THE BEST OF ME and NOT regret what will happen cause life in
UNPREDICTABLE.
helmi here.
Well, truth is, i don't really have an idea of wad i wanna become in the future or wad am i'm gonna do in life.I'm currently aimlessly going with the flow of life.i'm currently in my own world right now where i don't wanna grow up too fast.
I know we cant stay young FOREVER. Sooner or later u have to make the decision that can determine your future.
All of u can say i'm still a kid or wad-so-ever for not being able to make these decisions. I DON CARE. All i'm sure right now is that i'm not ready YET to make this decisions about my future cause i don have a clear mind about it.I know things will work out eventually and all i can do now is try to give life THE BEST OF ME and NOT regret what will happen cause life in
UNPREDICTABLE.
helmi here.
for the better
10:17 PM
had to cut hair today, if not you gonna see me get kicked out of class by chef gary tomorrow. damn it cause i look like a retard now with the new hairstyle -.-
daud turns young all over again
daud turns young all over again
it wasnt easy to begin with, was it?
9:05 PM
lifes difficult. that you cant deny. humans are greedy. yet another fact. why are such facts shown to us only at such a stage in life? shouldnt we be exposed to this cruel world when we were young? shouldnt we learn to grow up in this shitty world since we were babies? is parental love that necessary? is love even necessary? what actually makes us humans? our body? our faces? our knowledge that surpasses other species that allowed us dominate them?
talking about knowledge, we humans only use about 5% of our brain. yet we have shitty things called emotions and people are dying over them. if we could use more of our brain, wouldnt the whole fucking human race be wiped out by ourselves? or maybe its the brain's way of " hey, you dumb fucker. you only use 5% of me, i shall fucking torture you and make you live like hell!"
a cent for your thoughts, maybe you might require afew more cents since you only use 5% of that lump of thing in your skull.
zy here
talking about knowledge, we humans only use about 5% of our brain. yet we have shitty things called emotions and people are dying over them. if we could use more of our brain, wouldnt the whole fucking human race be wiped out by ourselves? or maybe its the brain's way of " hey, you dumb fucker. you only use 5% of me, i shall fucking torture you and make you live like hell!"
a cent for your thoughts, maybe you might require afew more cents since you only use 5% of that lump of thing in your skull.
zy here
liftoff
10:27 PM - Friday, November 20, 2009
today was fun!
met yao kwa and helmi and we rockband (again! hahaha!) and went to redhill market eat dinner. its been some time since we met, cause kwa was enjoying his freedom, yao has been entertaining himself with tees and samantha, helmi busy with school and me busy with loads of stuff.
really enjoyed talking crap during dinner cause yao had just have to shoot me about what happened last week. damn that fatso, may his fats return. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
daud here, and it was harder then i thought. but friends are always there to cheer me up. THX! ><
met yao kwa and helmi and we rockband (again! hahaha!) and went to redhill market eat dinner. its been some time since we met, cause kwa was enjoying his freedom, yao has been entertaining himself with tees and samantha, helmi busy with school and me busy with loads of stuff.
really enjoyed talking crap during dinner cause yao had just have to shoot me about what happened last week. damn that fatso, may his fats return. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
daud here, and it was harder then i thought. but friends are always there to cheer me up. THX! ><
It Just Hurts So Much...
6:15 PM - Thursday, November 19, 2009
ok... back from prom.. which was yesterday.... kinda okay i guess. but not worth the $60. maybe $40 would be ok HAHA!
anyway... regret wearing those stupid magnets! HURTS LIKE SHIT! maybe should just go for piercing... i dont know =( my pedro are still killing me.... heels still hurting. guess cant wear them for afew days =(
hope bs and me can get the job thought. i want to work ASAP! then got $.$ HAHA!
anyway this morning was at a pub. o_O place was not that bad in the first pub. nice music, no nice girls =.=
booze was ok thought but i hate beer =.= 2nd pub was worst. alot worst =.=. you must be there to know it HAHA. then headed back to zy's house slack around and that fatso minvin dont let me sleep!
around 4.30 we headed to mac... ate then took the first train back home. super tired man. guess i end here then :D
zy here~
it serious hurts. you did it on purpose. i rather you didnt. i rather all these didnt happen.
anyway... regret wearing those stupid magnets! HURTS LIKE SHIT! maybe should just go for piercing... i dont know =( my pedro are still killing me.... heels still hurting. guess cant wear them for afew days =(
hope bs and me can get the job thought. i want to work ASAP! then got $.$ HAHA!
anyway this morning was at a pub. o_O place was not that bad in the first pub. nice music, no nice girls =.=
booze was ok thought but i hate beer =.= 2nd pub was worst. alot worst =.=. you must be there to know it HAHA. then headed back to zy's house slack around and that fatso minvin dont let me sleep!
around 4.30 we headed to mac... ate then took the first train back home. super tired man. guess i end here then :D
zy here~
it serious hurts. you did it on purpose. i rather you didnt. i rather all these didnt happen.
Myabe it was never meant to be..
11:48 AM - Wednesday, November 18, 2009
in life... youre constantly falling... always falling... but there will never be anyone there to pick you up and say to you " lets continue on". it will never happen. its only you and yourself against the world. only you.
life's cruel. always cruel. no one was kind. wearing mask here and there. if youre unfit for this world, youre just like me. failure is the only name that you can always call yourself.
zy here. fuck this year
life's cruel. always cruel. no one was kind. wearing mask here and there. if youre unfit for this world, youre just like me. failure is the only name that you can always call yourself.
zy here. fuck this year
and it all comes back around and slaps me in the face
12:47 AM - Tuesday, November 17, 2009
after so long
and i thought i've learned from each mistake
i realized that dreams don't come true
and most importantly
i learned that
the thing you want the most is something you can never get.
and i thought i've learned from each mistake
i realized that dreams don't come true
and most importantly
i learned that
the thing you want the most is something you can never get.
daud here again for the second time -.-
cause i can't stop thinking about it.
cause i can't stop thinking about it.
the hidden truth
12:30 AM
heh, guess the truth will always be with me.
since everyone has their ups and downs,
i wont complain at all.
but the way i see it,
there is no way to fix it.
so no point but to move on with life i guess.
since everyone has their ups and downs,
i wont complain at all.
but the way i see it,
there is no way to fix it.
so no point but to move on with life i guess.
damn it all.
ps, KWA ZHENG YU hope you move on too but if you miss her then do something about it. REBECCA don't be so sad and cheer up cause got more fishes out there! HELMI sorry about that day cause i was really lost so one day come my house movie marathon for saw okay! QIYAO faster go do something about your shyness and confirm we all can help you if you need it. YUNKEAT don't so curious anymore so go ask her yourself if you want to know, be a man! CLARISSA i really appreciate everything you had done to help me and really sorry cause you had to hear what was originally meant for me.
daud here btw
Reasons
11:37 PM - Sunday, November 15, 2009
helmi here...im back!
yeah been away from this blog for quite some time... but i have reasons for that. I'm jz gonna randomly spam words of what i did this past weeks while i was away.
so here GOES, sick medicine weak hot stayed home sian rest alone time seven days mc went school H1n2 miss lots FRIENDS studies waves period harsh training late coming home bonds changes more training CC modern BBoy Groove house pop lock whack made new friends joelyn elizabeth CLOWNS rush messy wild hair hard work determination closer bond enjoyed performance WAVES 14 ftw awesome success celebrated high drunk tax sleepover COLD gays pillow attraction wasted post waves syndrome prata shopping the gang rush home studies studies more studies stayed in school waste time late class randoming shit LOA macdonald prize DANCE new choreo fix lappy MAD long wait again wasted trip went JALAN^2 mahd pics apek secrets disagreements falling apart GF/BF stayed home revise typing on lappy
so yeah. jumbled words see if u can make a story out of it xD
till nxt time~
yeah been away from this blog for quite some time... but i have reasons for that. I'm jz gonna randomly spam words of what i did this past weeks while i was away.
so here GOES, sick medicine weak hot stayed home sian rest alone time seven days mc went school H1n2 miss lots FRIENDS studies waves period harsh training late coming home bonds changes more training CC modern BBoy Groove house pop lock whack made new friends joelyn elizabeth CLOWNS rush messy wild hair hard work determination closer bond enjoyed performance WAVES 14 ftw awesome success celebrated high drunk tax sleepover COLD gays pillow attraction wasted post waves syndrome prata shopping the gang rush home studies studies more studies stayed in school waste time late class randoming shit LOA macdonald prize DANCE new choreo fix lappy MAD long wait again wasted trip went JALAN^2 mahd pics apek secrets disagreements falling apart GF/BF stayed home revise typing on lappy
so yeah. jumbled words see if u can make a story out of it xD
till nxt time~
im just sick and tired of all these
11:05 PM
zy here~
been sometime since i blogged! O levels are like finally over on friday! but did kinda bad for chem =( careless here and there. got about 33/40... was aiming for like a 35 so i can secure maybe an A2. o well its over already. got back today from class chalet which was directly after the last paper on friday.
chalet was... okay i guess.. wasnt much of class bonding as they wanted. most were just doing their own stuff. guys playing xbox, girls doing dont know what. me sleeping HAHA! kinda horrible doing the chalet if you were me. things just began to be irritating. i had to lie just to get someone off my back. seriously.
well, many things happen when i was out of society from my BROTHERS! hope they get past whatever happened. doesnt matter cause brothers will be there for you!
( p.s if youre the irritating person that irritated me during and AFTER THE CHALET, TOO BAD I DONT CARE! I RATHER LIE MY WAY THROUGH THEN TO TELL THE TRUTH AND GET HURT AGAIN! )
ciao~
been sometime since i blogged! O levels are like finally over on friday! but did kinda bad for chem =( careless here and there. got about 33/40... was aiming for like a 35 so i can secure maybe an A2. o well its over already. got back today from class chalet which was directly after the last paper on friday.
chalet was... okay i guess.. wasnt much of class bonding as they wanted. most were just doing their own stuff. guys playing xbox, girls doing dont know what. me sleeping HAHA! kinda horrible doing the chalet if you were me. things just began to be irritating. i had to lie just to get someone off my back. seriously.
well, many things happen when i was out of society from my BROTHERS! hope they get past whatever happened. doesnt matter cause brothers will be there for you!
( p.s if youre the irritating person that irritated me during and AFTER THE CHALET, TOO BAD I DONT CARE! I RATHER LIE MY WAY THROUGH THEN TO TELL THE TRUTH AND GET HURT AGAIN! )
ciao~
i don't give a damn
9:51 PM - Tuesday, November 10, 2009
ok, so maybe it did look abit like what MJ used to wear, but its not ok!
and its been way too long. don't you tink so too?
CHEESECAKE!
and its been way too long. don't you tink so too?
CHEESECAKE!
Its reall confusing sometimes
5:43 PM - Sunday, November 8, 2009
zy here again... what to expect from 2 lazy ass who doesnt want to blog? =.=
anyway had like a shopping spree for my prom stuff. managed to get everything ready. loves my pedro shoes <3 daud got his zara jacket and river island shoes. tonned at dauds house the day before. deprived of sleep cause i DIDNT HAD A FREAKING BLANKET TO SLEEP WITH AND ITS FREAKING COLD! feel like biting somebody HAHA!
anyway down to last 4 papers. not really bothered by chinese, mcq is like one im worried. actually im not worried cause im not even studying now HAHA!
o well, end here then. i still love my shoes BOOMZ!
the silence is killing me, maybe i should just leave this place and forget everything
anyway had like a shopping spree for my prom stuff. managed to get everything ready. loves my pedro shoes <3 daud got his zara jacket and river island shoes. tonned at dauds house the day before. deprived of sleep cause i DIDNT HAD A FREAKING BLANKET TO SLEEP WITH AND ITS FREAKING COLD! feel like biting somebody HAHA!
anyway down to last 4 papers. not really bothered by chinese, mcq is like one im worried. actually im not worried cause im not even studying now HAHA!
o well, end here then. i still love my shoes BOOMZ!
the silence is killing me, maybe i should just leave this place and forget everything
It Aint Over Till I Say So.... NOT
10:12 PM - Wednesday, November 4, 2009
zy here~
those other 2 buggers are always claiming busy/lazy to blog. so i shall blog then! :D
anyway finished all of the major papers! WOOOHOO! :D did quite okay i guess. while still have to wait for the results to come out next year =.=
anyway just rockband and halo at daud's house. lots of fun. now my throat feels kinda weird no idea why :(
o yes tomorrow me is going shopping! prom here i come! seriously considering that jacket from zara cause it looks awesome! TOTALLY! $$ fly fly~ but at least i will be happy somehow :D
ok end here then.. life's been boring these days. many things going past too fast that i seriously dont know what to do anymore.
those other 2 buggers are always claiming busy/lazy to blog. so i shall blog then! :D
anyway finished all of the major papers! WOOOHOO! :D did quite okay i guess. while still have to wait for the results to come out next year =.=
anyway just rockband and halo at daud's house. lots of fun. now my throat feels kinda weird no idea why :(
o yes tomorrow me is going shopping! prom here i come! seriously considering that jacket from zara cause it looks awesome! TOTALLY! $$ fly fly~ but at least i will be happy somehow :D
ok end here then.. life's been boring these days. many things going past too fast that i seriously dont know what to do anymore.
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