why the fuck am i feeling this feeling again? i thought it was suppose to be gone?! why is it fucking back again?
FUCK!
ALCOHOL MAY BE MAN'S WORST ENEMY BUT THE BIBLE SAYS LOVE YOUR ENEMY
navigate using the bars above
P L A Y
DOES THIS MEAN YOU'RE MOVING ON? BY THE AIRBORNE TOXIC EVENT
And the funny thing is it has no end
I try to call you up, at 2am
In a crowded bar, your ringer tones
Grab my mind
I can see you through the phone,
The phone, the phone
And I'm wide awake at home
At home, at home
So think I'll seem like a cat
And hope you don't catch
The bourbon on my breath
My breath, my breath
Catch a cab outside on Seventh Street
And the cars fly through the Bowery
I come to your door and I hear a moan
Then another voice, so Christ, she's not alone
Alone, alone
And my heart sinks like a stone
A stone, a stone
And the tears won't even come
I feel so numb
So swept aside, so dumb
So dumb, so dumb
When the words are wrong
And my patience gone
Will you tell me
Does this mean you're moving on?
From the balcony, you call my name
I see you standing in the rain
Your words so dry, your face so wet
Said I broke your heart,
But it hasn't happened yet
I'll bet, your friends all hate me now
I get the strangest looks,
From that bitchy crowd
And though, they must think
They have every reason to
I guess I'm still not quite yet over you
When the words are wrong
And you're hanging on
Another guy's arm
Does this mean you're moving on?
L O V E Y O U T U B E
ANNOYING ORANGE!
:D
P R O F I L E 1
THE LAME YET GOOD LOOKING DAUD
RANDOM FACTS ABOUT daud BY KWA & HELMI
ONE brown (i'm just tan lah)
TWO gets drunk often and
THREE does stupid stuff when his high
FOUR rebonded hair
FIVE likes to bang a wall and die
SIX pretends to be hit by air molecules all the time and
SEVEN does spastic octopus actions
P R O F I L E 2
THE KUNIANG YET ONE HELL OF A DANCER HELMI
RANDOM FACTS ABOUT helmi BY DAUD & KWA
ONE another brown, browner than DAUD
TWO LOVES fat & juicy thighs
THREE kuniang for life
FOUR dance till he drops
FIVE drools on people & people's pillow
SIX always plays with his curly part of his fringe
SEVEN has been asked by people why his name not HEAVEN-ME
P R O F I L E 3
THE BOTAK TRYIN TO GROW BACK HIS HAIR KWA ZHENG YU
RANDOM FACTS ABOUT kwa zhengyu BY HELMI & DAUD
ONE loves metal songs despite his guai appearance
TWO super youtube tard
THREE professional chiongster
FOUR endless flow of ideas in terms of confession
FIVE hates horror movies so much that he will cover his ears
SIX totally regards speakers as god
SEVEN has fantasies about CICAK MAN! (lizard man)
T A G B O A R D
GET THAT THOUGHT OUT OF YOUR MIND
FUCK
6:51 PM - Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Reminisce
11:41 PM - Sunday, April 25, 2010
met kwa, kuokloon and helmi at noon to go hunt for kamen rider stuffs at chinatown square. lots of cool stuffs!!! i still want my double head T_T
then rockband and halo with helmi, kwa and yao! reallly was fun and enjoyable since its been a long time we all gathered at my house to play. had the fun of screening each other and screaming vulgarities when we got killed or ks, just like in the past (: and as usual, we head downstairs for maggi goreng/ pratas and teh ice. talked about loads of stuffs, laughed alot and really just let everything out. turns out everyone of us has some girl problems and other earthly matters to think about. but feels nice to know that your brother's are there to hear you out and give you some advice. and the best part is you still can laugh around about it and not have to be reluctant to say out what you're thinking. really man, from the bottom of my heart, i love you guys (:
BROTHERS! *FIST BUMP WITH ALL OF YOU!*
then rockband and halo with helmi, kwa and yao! reallly was fun and enjoyable since its been a long time we all gathered at my house to play. had the fun of screening each other and screaming vulgarities when we got killed or ks, just like in the past (: and as usual, we head downstairs for maggi goreng/ pratas and teh ice. talked about loads of stuffs, laughed alot and really just let everything out. turns out everyone of us has some girl problems and other earthly matters to think about. but feels nice to know that your brother's are there to hear you out and give you some advice. and the best part is you still can laugh around about it and not have to be reluctant to say out what you're thinking. really man, from the bottom of my heart, i love you guys (:
BROTHERS! *FIST BUMP WITH ALL OF YOU!*
Still Kinda Stuck In The Mud
12:15 AM
ha im back... not much to update anyway, just did my autocad homework HAHA. long time since i did homework.
anyway today i watch american pie 1 , 2 , 3! bloody funny i swear, i think they are even better than beta house. so still got 2 more to go which is naked mile and band camp. shall watch them soon.
anyway tomorroing going out with kl daud and kuniang. go see rider stuff. otaku HAHA. o well at least they are nice... they should show riders instead of power rangers HAHA!
hm.. not much to update anyway... i shall end here then bye bye!
The smiles on your face are priceless, keep them on forever
anyway today i watch american pie 1 , 2 , 3! bloody funny i swear, i think they are even better than beta house. so still got 2 more to go which is naked mile and band camp. shall watch them soon.
anyway tomorroing going out with kl daud and kuniang. go see rider stuff. otaku HAHA. o well at least they are nice... they should show riders instead of power rangers HAHA!
hm.. not much to update anyway... i shall end here then bye bye!
The smiles on your face are priceless, keep them on forever
Maybe the end is near
6:51 PM - Wednesday, April 21, 2010
im back... anyway today school was boring. stupid idea module, 3 sketches in week 3 and have to present them, and the are worth 30% of the module. =.= seriously is fml can?
then after school headed down yao's house to help him with his magazine. took some pictures maybe he will be uploading later. anyway some shots turned out nice. so not bad lah haha
anyway he told me something also, maybe it will help me move on or not. but at least i know that the other side is better than my side HAHA.
anyway i end here today, haha going have dinner :D
gald to know that you have found someone you have fallen for.
then after school headed down yao's house to help him with his magazine. took some pictures maybe he will be uploading later. anyway some shots turned out nice. so not bad lah haha
anyway he told me something also, maybe it will help me move on or not. but at least i know that the other side is better than my side HAHA.
anyway i end here today, haha going have dinner :D
gald to know that you have found someone you have fallen for.
everything's ruined
11:00 PM - Monday, April 19, 2010
first day of school and i practically destroyed my life
1) my hair was so short and i looked like some freshie -.-
2) i dont know what's wrong but looks like we are back to avoiding even though
it wasnt even planned to be that way
3) i saw gen twice COINCIDENTALLY today, the first i think she nearly laughed at
my hair while the second time, she might have thought i was STALKING her
again, which i had NEVER done before because it was all a FUCKING
COINCIDENCE.
4) i am broke, penniless, not even a single cent! and i have to suit up for the FHA
this weds, whereby I DO NOT OWN A BLOODY SUIT! and i still owe yunkeat,
zhenru, arielle, rachel and qi yao money.
5) and i still cant stop thinking about those things -.- sorry if it's nothing to you
but it means something to me. A HELL LOT.
1) my hair was so short and i looked like some freshie -.-
2) i dont know what's wrong but looks like we are back to avoiding even though
it wasnt even planned to be that way
3) i saw gen twice COINCIDENTALLY today, the first i think she nearly laughed at
my hair while the second time, she might have thought i was STALKING her
again, which i had NEVER done before because it was all a FUCKING
COINCIDENCE.
4) i am broke, penniless, not even a single cent! and i have to suit up for the FHA
this weds, whereby I DO NOT OWN A BLOODY SUIT! and i still owe yunkeat,
zhenru, arielle, rachel and qi yao money.
5) and i still cant stop thinking about those things -.- sorry if it's nothing to you
but it means something to me. A HELL LOT.
Will it end with just a "stop"?
10:27 PM
today first day of school ok though. its like workshop so like we had to make a scotch holder for like 6 weeks. and its like 40% of the module =.=
then stone in school till like 2 then went home by bus and relaxed. still can adjust to school timing yet.
well.. still thinking about what to do, to talk or not? maybe should just leave her and let her progress right? i mean i cant be selfish and only think about myself i guess. maybe liked yao said, 18 months. maybe i will soon be over, maybe not. but right now at least im suffering not alone, but with friends.
end here then,
zy here
move on and forget me, maybe thats the last request from me
then stone in school till like 2 then went home by bus and relaxed. still can adjust to school timing yet.
well.. still thinking about what to do, to talk or not? maybe should just leave her and let her progress right? i mean i cant be selfish and only think about myself i guess. maybe liked yao said, 18 months. maybe i will soon be over, maybe not. but right now at least im suffering not alone, but with friends.
end here then,
zy here
move on and forget me, maybe thats the last request from me
Its all back to the beginning once again
11:11 PM - Sunday, April 18, 2010
i dont know what to do anymore. i dont know i want you in my life anot. the pain is making me think twice. even thrice.
when you blocked me, i wished you were online. now youre online, i wished you blocked me. i dont really know what i really want from you, or the other way round what you want from me.
i know youre moving on, im trying but it doesnt work. if just comes back as a circle, a never ending cycle. it just doesnt stop.
maybe you read maybe you dont, it doesnt really matter does it?
stop the torment right now, if not im surely going crazy
when you blocked me, i wished you were online. now youre online, i wished you blocked me. i dont really know what i really want from you, or the other way round what you want from me.
i know youre moving on, im trying but it doesnt work. if just comes back as a circle, a never ending cycle. it just doesnt stop.
maybe you read maybe you dont, it doesnt really matter does it?
stop the torment right now, if not im surely going crazy
To see the rainbow, it has to rain first.
11:08 PM - Friday, April 16, 2010
dont know whats wrong with me today...
anyway today went back qwss for speech day. kinda boring. people look about the same. nothing interesting.
i wonder why im so useless. shes online, i could had just talked to her. but i didnt. why? cause im useless thats why. my mind is like going back to those past few months again. i dont know whats to do about it anymore. time didnt really heal anything. its just like worsen it. i dont know. i dont want to care, but i cant. mind is totally messed up, emotional war today.
haiz, dont really want to continue anymore.
zy here
may a time machine be created so i can go back to the past and fix everything
anyway today went back qwss for speech day. kinda boring. people look about the same. nothing interesting.
i wonder why im so useless. shes online, i could had just talked to her. but i didnt. why? cause im useless thats why. my mind is like going back to those past few months again. i dont know whats to do about it anymore. time didnt really heal anything. its just like worsen it. i dont know. i dont want to care, but i cant. mind is totally messed up, emotional war today.
haiz, dont really want to continue anymore.
zy here
may a time machine be created so i can go back to the past and fix everything
Global Warming My ASS
2:02 AM - Tuesday, April 13, 2010
well well. im back again. bored again. anyway i was like looking at this poster at a bus stop for global warming. they said going vegan is the best way to stop global warming. well... might be a good idea, but it doesnt really solve the problem. let me break it down to you
E.g lets just say that the poster made many people go vegan.
1: firstly, vegetable prices will soar. and i mean soar sky high. cause the increase in demand for veggies increase at a very suddenly and high rate. so just think about those poor families and countries that cant really afford meat and only can get veggies. how are they suppose to survive? will the government aid them by giving them meat? wouldnt it be the same effect? people will starve and people will die. and i mean alot.
2: lets talk about the companies that own butchery and stuff. afew days back on the news they did a study that people wanted to cut down on soft drinks and it will result in billions of dollars lost. so just imagine. if every person on earth decides to stop eating that few hundred grams of meat they consume everyday, how much money will be lost from these companies? they will be forced to shut down. leaving millions jobless, and will the increase of veggie prices, they will more likely die.
3: after those companies shut down. where do the live stock go? kill them since they produce 51% of the green house gases? that will be rioted by animal activist, and no government wants riot. so it will be right to release them back to the wild? WRONG! these animals have been kept by humans thousands of years already. i can say they more or less have lost their animal instincts. protecting themselves will be almost impossible to their new environment. they are blessed with food around them, even if they can find food and survive, wouldnt it destroy ecosystems where they were released? their huge intake of food is sure to deplete the food sources around. what if they cant survive? millions of livestock dead, if no one keeps them, they can be well extinct, and after they die, the decompose for god sake. they still produce green house gases even when they die. what a bitch right?
4: since the suddenly increase of demand of veggies. many people will start planting them. and where do fertilizers come from? animal waste duh. so even if the cows and stuff are kept to produce fertilizers, what are we solving by keeping the main source of green hosue gases? plus people will start clearing land for plantations and stuff. lost of ecosystems and less trees to convert carbon dioxide WHICH HEATS THE EARTH into oxygen.
so these are more or less the 4 main reason turn vegan doesnt fucking help the situation at all. i have a idea though. why not just go to the main source?
humans! just killing everyone of us will surely reduce global warming greatly. you think im mad? we have to do our part for the earth! there are so many other animals out there. just 1 species wiped out can save the earth. isnt it a great deal? i bet humans are too selfish to even think of this idea. dumb fuck motherfuckers.
if you want to save the earth. please just plant a tree for every person on the fucking planet. increase electricity bills so PEOPLE WILL CONSIDER BEFORE THEY USE.
well i shall end here then. nothing better to do but think of such stuff. maybe i can get a nobel prize :D haha
zy here~
you are moving along too smoothly, or maybe it was me that was stuck in the mud all this while
E.g lets just say that the poster made many people go vegan.
1: firstly, vegetable prices will soar. and i mean soar sky high. cause the increase in demand for veggies increase at a very suddenly and high rate. so just think about those poor families and countries that cant really afford meat and only can get veggies. how are they suppose to survive? will the government aid them by giving them meat? wouldnt it be the same effect? people will starve and people will die. and i mean alot.
2: lets talk about the companies that own butchery and stuff. afew days back on the news they did a study that people wanted to cut down on soft drinks and it will result in billions of dollars lost. so just imagine. if every person on earth decides to stop eating that few hundred grams of meat they consume everyday, how much money will be lost from these companies? they will be forced to shut down. leaving millions jobless, and will the increase of veggie prices, they will more likely die.
3: after those companies shut down. where do the live stock go? kill them since they produce 51% of the green house gases? that will be rioted by animal activist, and no government wants riot. so it will be right to release them back to the wild? WRONG! these animals have been kept by humans thousands of years already. i can say they more or less have lost their animal instincts. protecting themselves will be almost impossible to their new environment. they are blessed with food around them, even if they can find food and survive, wouldnt it destroy ecosystems where they were released? their huge intake of food is sure to deplete the food sources around. what if they cant survive? millions of livestock dead, if no one keeps them, they can be well extinct, and after they die, the decompose for god sake. they still produce green house gases even when they die. what a bitch right?
4: since the suddenly increase of demand of veggies. many people will start planting them. and where do fertilizers come from? animal waste duh. so even if the cows and stuff are kept to produce fertilizers, what are we solving by keeping the main source of green hosue gases? plus people will start clearing land for plantations and stuff. lost of ecosystems and less trees to convert carbon dioxide WHICH HEATS THE EARTH into oxygen.
so these are more or less the 4 main reason turn vegan doesnt fucking help the situation at all. i have a idea though. why not just go to the main source?
humans! just killing everyone of us will surely reduce global warming greatly. you think im mad? we have to do our part for the earth! there are so many other animals out there. just 1 species wiped out can save the earth. isnt it a great deal? i bet humans are too selfish to even think of this idea. dumb fuck motherfuckers.
if you want to save the earth. please just plant a tree for every person on the fucking planet. increase electricity bills so PEOPLE WILL CONSIDER BEFORE THEY USE.
well i shall end here then. nothing better to do but think of such stuff. maybe i can get a nobel prize :D haha
zy here~
you are moving along too smoothly, or maybe it was me that was stuck in the mud all this while
guess it's too late for regrets
2:11 AM - Saturday, April 10, 2010
finally went back to blogger to see it was dying and kwa just posted. sorry for the dead blog, was absent from all the others too, facebook/ msn/ twitter/ tumblr. and helmi's been busy with orientation stuff this weeks.
happy news first! i got my supras yesterday! finally after so long (: and so me and yao decided to go wear them yesterday to the lib, vivo and town. oh and he banged this small caucasian kid. met fanny at tangs to go get her shoes. nice to have seen her again after some time. and i learned how to play mahjong, thanks to yunkeat qiying theresah kevin sean collin sin wei and jess (: i cant remember anything else that happened within the hols and i think my STM is getting alot worse. i cant even remember what i did ten minutes ago just now -.-
OH OH! and i saw someone unexpected twice! once with yao at cine and another was with yunkeat and his classmates at cathay. really a coincidence and i swear that was it! no such thing as stalking like what almost everyone is saying. really think that i should go up to you and personally apologize for all the misunderstandings. but since i dont have any confidence nor courage, i dont think this can ever be cleared.
and so many other things have been bugging me recently. thought about my future after that man talk i had with aldy a few weeks back. certain friendship are hanging on the line, tried to fix it back but it was useless and i dont know how to help anymore. school's opening in a week's time and i've been thinking about certain decisions after looking at the current situations surrounding me and some people. and other things which just randomly pops out.
nothing is easy in life huh? then i wonder which would be harder, to have told you in the first place or not to. and to be satisfied with what i have? now i think that sometimes, nothing is better. maybe all this time, i was just being played with your sweet words. i seriously dont know what to do or what to think, guess it's too late for regrets.
happy news first! i got my supras yesterday! finally after so long (: and so me and yao decided to go wear them yesterday to the lib, vivo and town. oh and he banged this small caucasian kid. met fanny at tangs to go get her shoes. nice to have seen her again after some time. and i learned how to play mahjong, thanks to yunkeat qiying theresah kevin sean collin sin wei and jess (: i cant remember anything else that happened within the hols and i think my STM is getting alot worse. i cant even remember what i did ten minutes ago just now -.-
OH OH! and i saw someone unexpected twice! once with yao at cine and another was with yunkeat and his classmates at cathay. really a coincidence and i swear that was it! no such thing as stalking like what almost everyone is saying. really think that i should go up to you and personally apologize for all the misunderstandings. but since i dont have any confidence nor courage, i dont think this can ever be cleared.
and so many other things have been bugging me recently. thought about my future after that man talk i had with aldy a few weeks back. certain friendship are hanging on the line, tried to fix it back but it was useless and i dont know how to help anymore. school's opening in a week's time and i've been thinking about certain decisions after looking at the current situations surrounding me and some people. and other things which just randomly pops out.
nothing is easy in life huh? then i wonder which would be harder, to have told you in the first place or not to. and to be satisfied with what i have? now i think that sometimes, nothing is better. maybe all this time, i was just being played with your sweet words. i seriously dont know what to do or what to think, guess it's too late for regrets.
Falling apart all together
1:47 AM
me agian... those 2 will never blog. anyway im like at home. very bored now. so decided to blog.
so... hmm what happened let me recount. arh i got my dunks. firstly, then... i got my laptop for school... then... online items came... then.... ya pretty much boring i would say.
so.. next week got orientation like 3 days. still working though. but might be quitting if i cant handle the shit from both work and school. so... pray i can handle so i can earn more $$. not very excited about school though. maybe its the classmates i guess..
well.. super dry post i suppose. not much in my life anyway. right now. just bored bored bored.
shall be back again
zy here
seems like you have forgotten about my existence totally
so... hmm what happened let me recount. arh i got my dunks. firstly, then... i got my laptop for school... then... online items came... then.... ya pretty much boring i would say.
so.. next week got orientation like 3 days. still working though. but might be quitting if i cant handle the shit from both work and school. so... pray i can handle so i can earn more $$. not very excited about school though. maybe its the classmates i guess..
well.. super dry post i suppose. not much in my life anyway. right now. just bored bored bored.
shall be back again
zy here
seems like you have forgotten about my existence totally
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