1:44 AM - Monday, August 30, 2010
sometimes i just wonder,
am i suppose to be a
in your life?
When a Heart Breaks, It Don't Break Even
10:06 PM - Sunday, August 29, 2010
hmm taking a break from studying now..
i don't know why but this song jz remind me of what happened to me recently.
Despite it's meaning, it's really a nice song.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even..
What am i gonna to do when the best part of me was always you
And what am i supposed to say when I'm all chocked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces,yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
break even - the script
Putting the past behind me
Time Doesnt Exist, We Just Made It Up
2:15 AM - Saturday, August 28, 2010
awake at 2.16am
have no idea what to do
sleep takes away the thoughts
but dreams install even bigger fantasy
now im just sitting face my screen
typing whatever comes to mind
but its always you that do that
it never fails
you are what i want
maybe its changing to a need
but you will never know
cause youre too good for me
maybe its just a thought
but thoughts are what dreams make
they make you think over and over again
mind fucking you every
of your life
to embrace is courage
or others call being afraid
but there is one thing for sure
im still awake at 2.16 am
zy here HAHA
2:31 AM - Sunday, August 22, 2010
why do you look so beautiful?
you never seem to fade from my memories,
holding on forever,
time will never tell,
neither can i,
but holding on to them,
is what i do best.
expecting nothing in return
is what they call true love?
Remembering The Old Days
3:59 AM - Monday, August 9, 2010
I was watching the show titled "old places" which depict places that remind Singaporeans of their past. Then it struck me.. the memories from my past. *FLASHBACK*
And then i thought to myself.
what was others' childhood been like?
well for me, I should say i had quite a wonderful childhood.
I've experienced happiness, sadness , fear , curiosity , embarrassment , jealousy, lust and etc.
- I remembered the time when my friends and i played catching and water bomb throughout my entire block area.
- I remember the time when we played blind mice , ice & water in the nearby playground.
- There was this one time my bike hit the tree near my block.
- I fell onto my friend's little brother with my teeth sinking into his face. remembered seeing him covered in blood & so was my teeth. that's something unforgettable.
- Played Tamiya Cars at the drainage area with friends as we had no ramp to begin with.
- Split someone else's beyblade in half.
- I remembered playing laser tag in the maze near my house.
- Caught tadpoles & spiders in the nearby field
- My kitten died and was buried beside the tree near my house.
- Got jealous of my cousin for making my first "crush" laugh all the time.
- RIZAL,RUSHDEE,TAUFIQ,HIDAYAT,KHAIRUDDIN & MAHADHIR were my childhood friends.
- Ms Sarah & Ms Lum being such good teachers back in my school.Had a crush on one of them :x
Both my parents were working and often not at home during the afternoons.
They allowed me to explore the outside world and i thank them for that.
Not being restraint to life at home, I learnt many things by myself.
As time passes, my childhood friends moved to a different neighbourhood one after another.
Now the nearby playgrounds, maze ,basketball court and path ways had been demolished and turned into a field full of vast greenery.
Every time i looked out of the window and gaze upon the field, the feeling & memories of playing with my childhood friends for hours & hours without end simply returned. It's as though time has stopped.
-pictures of you , pieces of me.
Law of Nature doesnt work this way
10:43 PM - Tuesday, August 3, 2010
just sitting here
thinking of nothing
but i know your heart isn't here with me
its wasn't from the start
sorrows and hatred mixed in the glass
bottom ups is all i can do
sucks to be me sometimes
I choose to love, because I would rather take a person through such a bitter Acacia. In each lonely night, I will try to learn, will continue to the end as i do not want you to worry. Perhaps we should recognize at least at one point I will be happy. However, I'll never regret, eventhough you never let me know why love is a sweet thing. . .
-You Wish Everyone Has a Chance
Feelings are not suppose to exist, yet humans choose to embrace the lies within them: emotions
11:28 PM - Sunday, August 1, 2010
ni men hao!
anyway im kinda pissed right now. supposed not to have school tomorrow, but got some tiny thing to do at school! so have to go back to school for LESS THAN AN HOUR! waste of my sleeping time T_T.
anyway today rb awhile, nothing much i guess. yao painted a nice tee (Y).
so ya, im jobless. so sad right? need to find job again. or should just go learn trading? tempting though.
so ya i think i end here then, nothing much to update
zy here!Thinking of you makes me happy :D