lemme summarize
8:32 PM - Thursday, August 11, 2011
daydreams
short
indecisive
low self-esteem
not much confidence left
too hasty
thinks too much
easily demoralized
lame
a fucking burden
lazy
bastard
insensitive
goal-less
thick-skinned
aint useful
procrastinator
and many more
well that sums me up quite well
in other words
A FAILURE, A FUCKING FAILURE
how i wish i can dig a fucking hole so deep
and never come out again -.-
stupid. so fucking stupid.
6:58 PM
ok, i've always misjudged things and come to conclusions
extremely fast
but looking at things now
it was a fucking mistake
to have gone ahead with that idea
i dont know what made me
believe that there was even a possibility in the first place
maybe its a wake up call
and the last one
well, i hope you get fucked the same way at work the way you fucked me up. bitch
12:29 AM
well the title sums it all up -.-
time for a puff puff with my mint intense
guys and girls.
10:40 PM - Wednesday, August 10, 2011
ok now i know why my mind blocked for these few days
feeling cranky again
seriously, guys and girls
there's not much difference
we all PMS
its just a matter of consistency
well fuckmylife -.-
feeling like this for no reason.
kns ccb diu le
Looking Back this 3 years
1:06 PM - Monday, August 8, 2011
We created this blog when i was 16? perhaps 17. Now im 19. Can you believe that?
I can confidently say I did quite alot of activities during my 3 yrs in school! (:
I'd just looked through all the photos i had in fb and realize how fast it has been since the picture of my first day in school up till now.
All the fun times we had together!
camps dance performances, going to the beach, jz hanging out! all that jz came back to me.
The photos also reminded me of what we once are and how we've change along the way.
I was quite small back then but as time goes by i've mature a lil bit. learning everyday how to be a better person.
I might not be as great now but i hope i will be in the future.
This is a reminder of future-HELMI of who i once were (:
H.E.L.M.I
Remember the things that make you smile, not on things than makes you frown!
ME off to school!
Listening to: Move like jagger -Maroon 5
Wondering
12:08 AM - Sunday, August 7, 2011
so is it wrong
to run away
instead of standing up
to the fear?
i guess
11:16 PM - Friday, July 29, 2011
it's time i forgive and forget
what's this feeling?
8:12 PM - Tuesday, July 26, 2011
i have an irresistible urge
to faster end my last few months of poly life
ASAP
but looking back at pictures
that i took
during these two and a half years
i kinda dont want
all those fun times to end
fuck, why am i contradicting myself so much these few weeks?
one by one
9:46 PM - Sunday, July 24, 2011
reality
9:12 AM - Friday, July 22, 2011
ok
i've come to realize that no one else
except me
updates this blog now
so i shall use this as a vessel
to say what i think
and what i feel
things which i cant express to anyone